Church Denominations???

It is a wonder to me when denominations of church became such a great deal. While some will take it lightly and consider all denominations are the same, some will differentiate and act hostile in this matter.


in my case, I meet this guy via twitter from my sis. This guy, eka, was a leader of campus circle of prayer. He's already graduated but my Sis wanted to share bout seminar (KKR in Indonesian) which was specially made for young generations--the college students. So she just ask this Eka bout to help share this events to his friends in campus. Then all of sudden he just babbling that campus is neutral and don't support denominations; on the other hand...the seminar has nothing to do with any denominations.God wants to make this seminar to spread the news of revelation 13, to warn and prepare them when the time comes. There's no other intention but to warn the young generation that the time is near and Jesus is coming very soon. 


Then this guy keeps saying the seminar would bring some denominations and students aren't object...Where's the part of making students as object? I also did tell him that we bring no denomination.I had a chat with my sis bout this guy and we reached a conclusion that maybe....just maybe...this guy had through some painful experience with church denomination then have some bitterness with it. 


Frankly speaking, it's kind of sad to see him keeps on insisting that we have other intention (in a bad way) in this seminar.And finally I just replied him 1 Timothy 6:4 and asked him to be careful 'cause sometimes...become paranoid or suspicious (really...he's way too paranoid) is a matter of his own heart.


I don't know if what I did is right...but I'm really hoping that he would understand that church denominations have nothing to do with Christ. The body of Christ is one and when someone want to share a good news (especially 'bout the second coming of Jesus or warn you 'bout the anti-christ) please don't be deceived by the devil and helping him with your negative thinking.


I hope that I can reach out and ask people to pray first before putting any hurting thought on someone; also, I want to share my thought of denominations.Yes, there are many church denominations and often...they are clashing one to another. However, their Master is Jesus. Jesus has great plans to every denominations and He won't let them ruined because of unreasonable clash. 


Body of Christ is one, how can it become one if we keep on differentiate and avoid some certain or all denominations? Don't you dare to judge any denominations...


Matthew 7:1-2"Judge not, that ye be not judged.  For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again."


Is church denominations important? What's important is love Jesus, follow Jesus, pray to Jesus;not to someone else.




If you don't like some denominations so be it, don't judge them but just let them. There might be something that different from the way you do but God loves them, who are we to judge them? Their Master, Jesus, will take care of them so just be still and worship God...He has the ultimate control over everything.

Heart Test

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These past days, my prayers were granted. I asked Lord to destroy my ego and indeed He’s working on it  now.

I used to have a super unpleasant personality and prefer to leave whenever I felt hated, rejected, and unwanted. I don’t know where were they come from but those were just there.

 Hated, rejected, and unwanted—I did shut myself because of these three feeling.

My oldest memory that I can feel really strong even now is the time when my kindergarten teachers treated my differently than another child. Well, the other child was sick and pukes; that event affected me and alas~ I puked as well in my lunch box. While the other child treated kindly, I was scolded and told to wash my lunch box all by myself at the back of the school (I was weeping as I washed the box). I wondered and even now I wonder, did I do anything wrong or bad? Why was I treated differently? Was it because I am ugly? Was it because I am poor?

I can tell you more about my ruined soul, but they are all trash. I only need to open one depressing memory as an introduction to my twisted old personality.

It turns out that the character built by such experience would be an unpleasant one. I was proud and pulling myself back whenever I sense that there are people who don’t like me. I didn’t want to say “Hi!” before people reach me. I felt that if I don’t have any use for a group then I am unwanted. In other words…I didn’t have any self-confidence on myself and always longing to be a beautiful lady so that people would love me. Low self-esteem, insecurity, self-hate followed by envy to others that seems to obtain what I wanting. I even dreamt of being a daughter of a rich family so that I could do or have anything I need to be loved.

What a world for me, eh? Life seemed depressing for me and this was also one reason for me to playing games. After all, gaming made me forget who I am and let me be a hero that saved the world and be loved. 

Now back to the great grace of the Lord.

I am aware that my ego is one dangerous issue and I need it to be fixed pronto! So I prayed about it and these past days…even today I was in a situation where the “old” me should be furious and wanting to do some vengeance.

The problem is simple tough. In my circle (my study class about the Lord) God has letting me to know this girl, Junita. It turns out that her personality isn’t better than mine. She’s the type that can’t be annoyed since she is easy to be let down by a person. She will be a brat that playing silence treatment whenever she like even if she doesn’t have any reason to be mad. Frankly speaking, she’s the type that I hate most and I want to avoid forever.

The old me screaming and crying to move out to other class but I know that I must not leave since this is the way God destroying my ego. I was forced to accept her and love her just the way she is. It is really a torture…

The torture on the flesh (beaten) might be easy to endured, but this is a torment to my soul especially my ego.

My mind keeps on telling me that I am rejected, unwanted and nobody would love me; why should I stay in that place? I better leave.   

My mind wants me to leave, but my spirit wants me to stay and endure this ordeal. I am forced to bless her despite of her silly treatment on me while the truth is I want to say harsh words and make her in misery. I’m trying real hard to treat her normally and equally as the others while she’s clearly separate me. I did forgive her and trying to understand her history but her behavior is a no no for the “old” me—ego. The old me would walk away and leave that circle without any doubt and put the blame on her.

Still, I reminded of a song…”I’m in love with God and God in love with me; this is who I am and this is who I’ll be and that’s settle it…” then a story from my mentor, “I don’t need love from people. I only need love from God.”  Seems good, eh? Unfortunately I was still up set…

Surprisingly, the Lord did give me a pleasant experience to cheer me up. Jesus gave me a pleasant taxi driver who is polite and likes to chat about good things just on the right timing when I almost lost my temper. Just now He even send me strengthening words from a friend of the church :D

The real things I want to tell you are…

Who said that history create peoples? My life might be a ruined one and my ego is the offspring of it. But I was not created by my life’s history. I might be ruined now but God is a good Lord that He will fix me at once. I was and am created by the Lord Jesus Christ alone.    

God gives us tests so that we can be developed even more in His hand. Even when the condition seems unfair, God uses it as a tool to polish us to be His perfect bride. After all, I was the one who asked to be destroyed since I want to be perfect and capable in spirit. When I am down and wanting to give up, He set people to cheer me up without their realization. It seems simple but it makes my heart strong again ‘cause I know that He understands and loves me.   

I might still be a lousy person but I believe God is able to change me, and He is able to change you as well. Just ask Him, surely He hears you and know what you need most.

Jesus Loves Me

Lord, I want to cry; I want to unleash my rage

Yet I know, that against Your will

Lord, I want to run into Your arms; I want to cry on Your laps

Pouring out my despair, telling You about my struggle

Lord, You know my heart; even more than I do

Let me feel Your love even greater in this sorrow

Even if my mind keeps telling me I am rejected

Even if my mind keeps pointing me I am unwanted

Even if my mind keeps pushing me I am hated

I won’t do as my fake mind told me to

‘Cause I know that Jesus loves me

And that’s the best thing I ever have in my life

wiT''

02 May 2012, 11:38 pm