Even More Grace from the Lord

I was on my way home and saw my college friend, Lily, standing in front of her house with a flashlight looking into the ditch. I asked her what is she doing and her answer is a sad one. Some thief managed to enter her house and took away two laptops, she wondered about her padlock and want to find it. Sadly, I can only tell her to endure it since she had called the police and made a report to the chief of the village.

 This unfortunate event reminds me of my past which is related to burglar things. I was in a sophomore in high school and still living with my family. However, that time Dad wasn’t home, alas I only have my Mom and Bro together. My living place always was a complicated matter ever since I can remember, we always moving to another place. My family owns a shop and planned to move the shop to other venue. Hence, we have the building, which was in a quiet area without other residents but me and Mom. Bro decided to stay at the old shop until the new one completely established leaving us the ladies alone.

Mom is a religious one, she prays every day and I was a bad child then. I ignored everything and just locked myself in the room playing alone, I also hated to go to school since I dislike the people there (I was such a wrench -___-a). Back to the topic … In reality, two ladies alone in a big building surrounded by darkness since there were no other people live there would be an easy target for criminal. In spite of that, there was nothing at all! We never experienced dangerous situation of a burglar broke into our home or whatsoever. Instead, it was peaceful time until Dad returned.

I didn’t realize it back then, but God’s grace already shines upon my family for a long time and it still working until now (and forever I believe J). There were no burglar attempts when it was only me and Mom, but when there was a man in the house then something happens.

If I remember correctly, it was the second or the third night after Dad return. Mom awoke as she wanted to go to the bathroom. She passed the back window and realizes there was someone there. She didn’t scream or woke Dad up but simply took some water, splashed it out the window and that unknown person fled in hurry. That was the first burglar attempt my family has experienced and the Lord protected us amazingly. 

         

Not long after the first event, the second event also involved Mom. That time she heard noises at the back, she assumed it was me (who always stay late playing video games) but she saw my light was off and decided to check it. I don’t really remember it but she didn’t splash water to the burglar like the first event but touched the window curtain and the burglar fled. The next morning she checked the window, she found some blades there and I don’t wanna imagine the “if” scenario.

Even more, there was the third attempt. The first two tried to broke in through the back window on the second floor, the third one tried to break the steel door at the third floor.

Here’s the story. It was midnight and raining, Bro’s room was at the third floor and at that time he prayed just like usual. Believe it or not, God told him about devil trying to come into the house. In other words, the Lord warned him about the burglar then he realized there was someone trying to break the door!

I’m overjoyed, these are old stories but I’m in awe since I experienced God’s grace in my own life and now I realize He always take cares of my family! I also stated that there are no lies in the bible, and indeed the bible contains truth more than you can imagine. Those experiences are the living words of these verses:

(Psalms chapter 91:11)

“For He shall give His angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.”

(Psalm chapter 121:7)

“The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul.”

The era we are living in is indeed the era of blessing. Lord Jesus answers my questions and grants me my wish, what can make me happier more than the Lord? NOTHING!

A little addition about the truth of bible, my ex-bf misunderstood about Christian and said he dislike the “promises” things. That time I wasn’t home into the Lord house and I couldn’t answer anything to it since my thought of it almost the same as him then. However, I think with the support of the Holy Spirit I can answer him boldly that the Lord made promises and going to fulfill it exactly just like what He stated in the bible. It’s up to us to believe it or not, just remember that the Lord never lies!

God promised to grant us this and that, but we also have to love and obey Him. He can’t just grant the wicked along with the good; after all, God is fair.  

Lika

I’m not a patient person, instead I’m such an ill-tempered person that often hurt people around me. It’s been a long time (just my feeling) since I exploded, however this night I did something embarrassing.

After work I ride busses, and this driver ask for more fee (I usually give the same amount yet this man ask for more?). I left him without any word, since I kinda feel irritated so I decided to just walk away (without giving him more money).

I’ve planned to buy a new earphone (mine broken) along with a gadget via online, but before that I need to buy a USB mouse. I realized that I need more money since I didn’t keep much money in my purse. Thus, I walked to Binus Syahdan toward the ATM center.

I wonder why but it seems my mood affected my luck. The machine swallowed my card; alas, I couldn’t draw my card back or any money. I tried to kick the machine and it won’t budge, then I tried to ask for help from people that guarded the campus; but they laughed at me, telling me that they couldn’t do anything.

I let myself loose then, I called “halo BCA” and ended up pouring my anger to the customer service operator. I told the operator, whose name is Lika, about what happened in not-so-good tone. I even whined about the machine, which is a hellish machine that often to swallow cards, and told her this is my second time I got my card swallowed in the same machine.

This Lika didn’t let my harsh attitude affect her, she kept on talking in nice manner and handled this silly girl calmly. I’m in awe, this is her work and I believe she often faces rude customers like me yet she keep on her cool. Lika managed to won over my heart and I really am embarrassed.

I said this and that about Jesus, God’s grace and so on; yet I couldn’t control myself. God knocked me trough this lady, I let my guard down and He instantly remind me. Lika is able to control her emotion, she might be hurt from what I’ve done but she still served me nicely. What a great lady she is!

Furthermore, my mom called me and I told her what happened. She especially didn’t like the way I treated the bus driver and yeah…I felt guilty too about it. I ended this day stupidly and done things that I definitely will regret.

Being a Christian means to deny the ego, to be able to control our body and soul and let the Holy Ghost to leads us every time. I was failed and the Lord gave me this precious lesson. The future seems hard but with God all things are possible (Matthew chapter 19:26).

Thank you dear Lord Jesus :)   

Living Words

Ask, and it shall be given

Last week I felt troubled bout my freelance works. I have to rewrite 30 articles in a week and all about cars, which is not my expertise.  Moreover, since I have another job as an apprentice, I won’t have enough time to do some research to polish my work. Alas, I gave up about researching and just playing with words in the articles. My dear sis was helping me; she did three articles and the rest? All mine.

Until Monday I felt really dizzy and frustrated, I felt like I wanna give up. However, I pushed myself, endured and prayed. I need power and the Lord really gives me more power \(- o -)/

Tuesday, I checked my email and found out that my next task also about cars. I didn’t know how, but I felt my spirit growing and I have no problem in doing it (no hard feeling at all for the work unlike last week).This is a small case, it's not at big deal, but this small problem often ruining my life.

God reminds me (from my Mom) to be responsible. I’ve taken the job so I have to done it. Moreover, I’m the one who asked to be trained (and God really gave me this training season…). Therefore, I have no right to complain, after all this is what I wanted and He gives me strength; so, no need to whine J 

Luke chapter 11:9

“And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.”

In my previous post, I stated that I asked and the Lord really gives me what I have asked. There are no lies in the Bible, all truth. I experiencing it and I believe that soon, more people will experience God’s grace.

Faith

One of my few dear friends told me about his dream. He said that in his dream, an unknown girl and I ask him to go somewhere but something happens and a building collapsed, then he saw me wounded and covered in blood asking for help. It seemed the dream disturbed him enough to call me and asked if there is anything going on.

I was touched and somehow sad, since the dream was not a good one. Then I braced myself and told him that I’m all right and I would prefer him to have God raptures me in his dream.

One interesting fact in my experience about the word “rapture” which is “diangkat” in bahasa Indonesia. Most people would take it as “dead”, not taken to the heaven alive. They would said things like “Are you sick?” or “Do you have a problem?”.

I explained about my belief of rapture and told him that this world has little time left. I didn’t know if I use a wrong words or this topic was not really appealing, but he was upset.   

This dear friend didn’t hide anything, he clearly stated that I freaked him out. He dislikes the idea about doomsday, the end of the world or whatever the name is. He said his friend also Christian but never said such things. To be honest I was somewhat hurt, but I can’t blame him.

I realized that it is hard to keep my faith without being judged and treated as a freak. However, I’ll just let it be and keep on believing. After all, I prefer to live my life as a tool of the Lord and serve Him than live in this temporary world. I believe in heaven and the eternal life that will be granted from the Lord after we finish our mission in this earth.

Perhaps I’m insane, crazy, freak, blablabla.

But keeping my faith to Lord Jesus won’t hurt me since I’m chasing the afterlife not the life in this world.     

An answered prayer

Working as an apprentice is fun. Although I got no salary XD this wonderful experience itself is enough to satisfy me.

One thing for sure, I couldn’t sleep until noon again. The office starts at 8.30 and I used to sleep until 11.00 ( o.o “) Somehow I remember about my wish to God to change me into a discipline and responsible person and get rid of my laziness. Then voila, He gave me a job…

I am a human with many flaws, aside of my laziness and bad behavior; I also am a timid person. I used to be afraid of going out to an unfamiliar place, let alone riding a bus. I choose taxi instead of busses and now I ride busses every morning and evening.

God’s force really is mysterious; He gives strength, guts and wit.

He answers my prayer with something new and exciting. He polishes me and when I took a peek into my past, He amazed me so much.

A disfigured man

This noon I saw a man with a disfigured face and broken fingers, I think he got into some accident (maybe fire) that made him like that. This man is a beggar; he was walking between cars hoping to gain some money from drivers that took pity on him. I didn’t notice but my bro in law stopped my sis from giving some money to that man. He said that he often sees that man smoking, he dislike the idea of a poor man smoking (me also hate it) while the money that man used to buy cigarette could be used to buy food or other things (absolutely not smoking).

Then one interesting topic occurred, can that man work instead of being a beggar?

I took a glance over him then and I think he was a middle-aged man, not too old to work; alas, this world indeed is a cruel world. In a world where the people judge a person by his look, a man like him wouldn’t get any decent job.

Would you buy a food from a disfigured man?

Do you prefer a disfigured man seller than a man with average look seller?

Would you accept a disfigured person as a worker in your office?

I believe most would pity him and answer those questions “YES”, which is really a sweet talk of you people J

In reality, that man couldn’t help but to sell his unfortunate state as a beggar to gain sympathy and money.

There are places such as charity foundation or church that could help him in, but this is Indonesia. It’s a shame for me but I must admit our people are not that kind. Most of charity foundation would be a corruption site, and our people are people with wide diversity without unity. Hence, even if the church would help, if the man were in other religion, I don’t think he would accept the help. Moreover, is there any kind people left in this world?

Most of people would only protesting and blabbering about poverty, social gap, injustice, blablabla. They are smart people but couldn’t provide any solution but to bark and bark over and over again.

As for me, I’m clearly state: “I couldn’t help that man. I would whine about this broken country and openly admit I’m eagerly wait for my Lord to return to this earth and judge it.”

Back to the topic,

It is a bitter truth but our society is a cruel society where only the rich could enjoy the good life, the average with a steady life (working, warm food, sleeping on a bed), and the poor suffers.