Do you know, if you started a day with a bad mood it will affect your whole day to be such an unfortunate day?
Many wise people told us about it and use analogy to describe the difference of starting a day wisely with patience or stupidly with anger.
The most common example is:
A father woke up late. He rushed to prepare himself and “unfortunately” he had an accident with a cup of coffee. His daughter split the coffee on his shirt; alas, he snapped and yelled at her and also scolded the mother. The daughter cried, surely in that state she could not go to the school on bus like usual. The father, after changed shirt, forced to take the daughter to the school – making him arrived at the office even more lately. At this point, the father not only late; he also hurt the mother and daughter.
Turn the scenario; a father woke up late. He rushed to prepare himself and “unfortunately” he had an accident with a cup of coffee. His daughter split the coffee on his shirt, but he patiently smiled at his child and consoled her. While the father changed his shirt, the daughter went to the school on bus like usual. The father then kissed the mother and went the office just in time; well…it might be late but not that late.
I believe many of us ever read about this. However, did you ever experience it?
I did.
I admit I was not a good or kind girl. Instead, I had a temper that made me easy to explode. The core of this bad attitude lies on my ego. Blessed, I have to surrender it all to God and now I’m in some kind of treatment on this temper.
One day, I woke up late and rushed to the office. I didn’t have any coffee accident but I was forced to take a crowded bus to the office. It was a hot morning and I carried some luggage with me. Since I hate crowded place, the crowded bus felt like a torture for me—my mood quickly hit the bottom bar and the unfortunate day started.
Arrived late at the office was not a big deal, the suddenly-broken-netbook was the problem. I couldn’t connect the internet and that’s mean I couldn’t work. Thankfully the office has a spare notebook, which I could use for awhile. I was upset enough and at the evening I realized I lost my purse. It was only coin purse, but I have enough money for one-meal-budget there. I scold nobody but I had an unpleasant day—I realize that whenever I got into some bad mood, my day would be bad (and I don’t even know since when this pattern started. Before I submitted to God, my mood never affect my luck =_=).
Another day, which is yesterday… my mood wasn’t good or bad, was it void. At the morning I tried to be friendly to Selly, yet it was rejected. I admit I’ve done wrong to her in the past, I did apologize to her and it seemed wasted; it is a surprise for me to know some grudge she holds to me. Honestly, it was upsetting me…
Arrived at the office, I was doing my usual desk job and sending group mail. I almost done the group mail when I realized I mistook the dating—I felt miserable and for awhile I didn’t know what to do to repent it. I choose to resend the group mail (T_T) and in the middle of it….Yahoo server went down; I felt like I want to bash my netbook. While waiting for the Yahoo server, I tried to promote the event in a forum. I already got this bad feeling but I didn’t prepare at all. There were some unfriendly responses in the forum; moreover there is one guy acted really hostile.
After office hour, I went to Semanggi delivering my novel collection to a buyer. When she checked the novels, it was revealed that the printing company didn’t use high-quality glue to attach those pages. I dislike the idea of letting that buyer go with imperfect books; yet she accepted it and told me the books are great (at that point I didn’t aware, but now I recognize the God’s favor on me). Went home, stuck at traffic, paid a great taxi bill because of that super traffic (==”)
Finally home….
Are we done yet?
NO!!
I couldn’t enter my room for awhile because of some error in the keyhole. I thought Evi was already home, but I peeked the room from the window and there was nobody at all; why on earth the key won’t budge? I managed to enter the room after a brute force versus the keyhole (-_-“)
I felt super miserable and almost explode. Still, I ran to God and pour it all. I put it all into His holy fire and let it burned along with my ego. I never aware of it, but there was something that lifts my anger. My anger was gone completely and I gain a bizarre calmness. It was a simple thing, yet a miracle for me J
Thus, let us see the relation between bad mood and faith to the Lord. Some people might realize it already, but I only know this just now… (Thanks Holy Ghost :-* )
Bad mood could be interpreted into ungrateful manners, which is conveyed in a form of unsatisfied feeling on something.
Ordinary people would say this, “Unsatisfied or unhappy is human! There’s nothing wrong with it.”
Yes, it is human. However, human never feel satisfy—human always looking for more and more and even more.
“There is nothing that could satisfy me but the Lord.” (I forgot where I read it but I believe it is said by David, the line would be a little different but it has the same meaning).
Get a grip, realize it. Be thankful in every occasion: good or bad, lucky or unlucky, happy or sad. Be thankful for your life, which is granted. Furthermore, God never leave us—be thankful for that fact. Set your eyes on the Lord alone, and you’ll be satisfied more than you ever feel.
I sold my pc parts (I asked Albert to dissemble my pc). I thought it was enough, but I still hold my playstation. The images of playing game often loiter around in my mind and tortured me. I have to fight my desire to playing. 
