Once, my friend told me to be a humble person since in his eyes I always have “I know the best” attitude. He also asked me to learn to accept people for what they are, a thing that I’m struggling to do.
His words pierced into me and embarrassed me a lot since I thought I already am a good person. That was an awakening for me, a truth that slap me hard, I still am a human with nasty pride.
Fight between me and myself is a fight to overcome my ego, and vanity is one of my biggest enemy.
It’s hard for me to accept people that are living in stupid lifestyles yet I was one of those stupid people. I was a gamer, a hardcore one that willing not to sleep until I reach my goal in games. I put my whole life into gaming world and despised people that were trying to take me out; in my mind, they were annoying.
I forgot about my position then and being a hater of stupid lifestyles. My hatred is born from my vanity, I forgot about who I was. The Lord Jesus shows His mercy and I forgot about it, I forgot how people need love and mercy more than a judging attitude.
The truth is, even now I’m still struggling to fight over my ego. I still am hating the stupid lifestyles (gaming, free sex, workaholic, etc) and the Lord’s grace allow me to realize that those are not happen because of the people but because of the spirit.
No matter how hard I tried, I will always fail if I don’t depend on the Lord. My nature is hate, I even hating myself; but then, Lord Jesus is the only almighty God that saved a wretched like me and I must learn to be like Him.
A person that able to shares love from the Lord.
only want respond about workaholic. some people dont have choice for their income. they must work very hard to paid their monthly debt and for their family. i believe if they have choice, they will not choice to be a workaholic. they want to be free finansial people and live happily with their family. but life not like a simple path
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