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Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Letter from Satan

READ FIRST.....
LETTER FROM SATAN
by Frencis Joy Panerio on Monday, 08 August 2011 at 05:14
DARK LETTER
PAY ATTENTION TO THE P.S. at the end.
Letter from the Devil
This can really make you think. It actually made me really mad while I was reading it, but it made me realize some things.
Plus, I had to send it because of the P.S.
This is deep... and I wasn't going to forward or share it, but that last line... you'll see.


A LETTER TO YOU FROM SATAN

I saw you yesterday as you began your daily chores.
You awoke without kneeling to pray. As a matter of fact, you didn't even bless your meals, or pray before going to bed last night.
You are so unthankful, I like that about you.
I cannot tell you how glad I am that you have not changed your way of living, Fool, you are mine.
Remember, you and I have been going steady for years, and I still don't love you yet.
As a matter of fact, I hate you, because I hate God.
He kicked me out of heaven, and I'm going to use you as long as possible to pay him back.
You see, Fool, GOD LOVES YOU and HE has great plans in store for you.
But you have yielded your life to me, and I'm going to make your life a living hell.
That way, we'll be together twice. This will really hurt God.
Thanks to you, I'm really showing Him who's boss in your life with all of the good times we've had.
We have been...
watching dirty movies, cursing people out, loving worldly things, having bad influences, stealing, lying, being hypocritical, fornicating, overeating, telling dirty jokes, gossiping, being judgmental, back stabbing people, disrespecting adults, and those in leadership positions, no respect for the Church, bad attitudes.
SURELY you don't want to give all this up.
Come on, Fool, let's burn together forever. I've got some hot plans for us. This is just a letter of appreciation from me to you.
I'd like to say 'THANKS' for letting me use you for most of your foolish life.
You are so gullible, I laugh at you. When you are tempted to sin, you give in.
HA HA HA, you make me sick.
Sin is beginning to take its toll on your life. You look 20 years older, and now, I need new blood.
So go ahead and teach some children how to sin.
All you have to do is smoke, get drunk or drink while under-aged, cheat, gamble, gossip, fornicate, and live being as selfish as possible.
Do all of this in the presence of children and they will do it too. Kids are like that.
Well, Fool, I have to let you go for now. I'll be back in a couple of seconds to tempt you again. If you were smart, you would run somewhere, confess your sins, and live for God with what little bit of life that you have left.
It's not my nature to warn anyone, but to be your age and still sinning, it's becoming a bit ridiculous. Don't get me wrong, I still hate you.
IT'S JUST THAT YOU'D MAKE A BETTER FOOL FOR CHRIST.
P.S. If you love me, you won't share this

Monday, September 5, 2011

Life


http://missduckness.blogspot.com/2011/07/ice-cold.html


While the girls gossiping around at the kitchen, I would be locked in my own room reading or writing. I am such a wrench who always feels rejected and casted out. Some people would never realize it but I am what they call as sad and lonely. To be honest, I don’t have anyone to be called as friend, let alone buddy. 

Pity on self is such a great sin; I’m struggling to fight over it. I often tell people to enjoy their suffering, and I know how it feels in reality. I often cry over it and in my loneliness I would have a very low self esteem since I always interpret everything as my fault. If people talking and finished it when I come, I would think that they dislike me and better be off than let me join the talk. I used to be in a situation of being a silent hearer, it felt like an invisible person and it really was breaking my heart. As a result, I distanced myself from the society because in my mind I was thinking that I won’t be hurt if there is nobody around me.   

I don’t know why, but it seems that I am afraid to be hated. I took the path and enjoy it if people hate me for Jesus, but I just don’t understand if they hate me for other reason. In this case, I am strong in Jesus but weak without Him.
Nevertheless, this makes me realize that I am still in love with myself, my ego. I’m longing for a friend but Jesus already is my friend. My mistake is I don’t run after Him but searching for reassurance from mere human.

Now, I suddenly remember a verse about not to depend on human. Human could hurt you, human can betray you, human can kill you; but the Lord is love, everything He has done is based on love, unlike human that act based on their ego. It doesn’t mean to leave the society and being a hermit, it means to just be yourself and let other think what they like; after all, what important most is the Lord.

Right now, I still am such a coward and rejected but I believe in Jesus. He was the one that transformed me from the lowest point of my life, surely He has a plan for me.