Lika

I’m not a patient person, instead I’m such an ill-tempered person that often hurt people around me. It’s been a long time (just my feeling) since I exploded, however this night I did something embarrassing.

After work I ride busses, and this driver ask for more fee (I usually give the same amount yet this man ask for more?). I left him without any word, since I kinda feel irritated so I decided to just walk away (without giving him more money).

I’ve planned to buy a new earphone (mine broken) along with a gadget via online, but before that I need to buy a USB mouse. I realized that I need more money since I didn’t keep much money in my purse. Thus, I walked to Binus Syahdan toward the ATM center.

I wonder why but it seems my mood affected my luck. The machine swallowed my card; alas, I couldn’t draw my card back or any money. I tried to kick the machine and it won’t budge, then I tried to ask for help from people that guarded the campus; but they laughed at me, telling me that they couldn’t do anything.

I let myself loose then, I called “halo BCA” and ended up pouring my anger to the customer service operator. I told the operator, whose name is Lika, about what happened in not-so-good tone. I even whined about the machine, which is a hellish machine that often to swallow cards, and told her this is my second time I got my card swallowed in the same machine.

This Lika didn’t let my harsh attitude affect her, she kept on talking in nice manner and handled this silly girl calmly. I’m in awe, this is her work and I believe she often faces rude customers like me yet she keep on her cool. Lika managed to won over my heart and I really am embarrassed.

I said this and that about Jesus, God’s grace and so on; yet I couldn’t control myself. God knocked me trough this lady, I let my guard down and He instantly remind me. Lika is able to control her emotion, she might be hurt from what I’ve done but she still served me nicely. What a great lady she is!

Furthermore, my mom called me and I told her what happened. She especially didn’t like the way I treated the bus driver and yeah…I felt guilty too about it. I ended this day stupidly and done things that I definitely will regret.

Being a Christian means to deny the ego, to be able to control our body and soul and let the Holy Ghost to leads us every time. I was failed and the Lord gave me this precious lesson. The future seems hard but with God all things are possible (Matthew chapter 19:26).

Thank you dear Lord Jesus :)   

Living Words

Ask, and it shall be given

Last week I felt troubled bout my freelance works. I have to rewrite 30 articles in a week and all about cars, which is not my expertise.  Moreover, since I have another job as an apprentice, I won’t have enough time to do some research to polish my work. Alas, I gave up about researching and just playing with words in the articles. My dear sis was helping me; she did three articles and the rest? All mine.

Until Monday I felt really dizzy and frustrated, I felt like I wanna give up. However, I pushed myself, endured and prayed. I need power and the Lord really gives me more power \(- o -)/

Tuesday, I checked my email and found out that my next task also about cars. I didn’t know how, but I felt my spirit growing and I have no problem in doing it (no hard feeling at all for the work unlike last week).This is a small case, it's not at big deal, but this small problem often ruining my life.

God reminds me (from my Mom) to be responsible. I’ve taken the job so I have to done it. Moreover, I’m the one who asked to be trained (and God really gave me this training season…). Therefore, I have no right to complain, after all this is what I wanted and He gives me strength; so, no need to whine J 

Luke chapter 11:9

“And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.”

In my previous post, I stated that I asked and the Lord really gives me what I have asked. There are no lies in the Bible, all truth. I experiencing it and I believe that soon, more people will experience God’s grace.